| | Not that this will ever happen, but I imagine that if Aaron and I were to ever break up it would be something like this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dJZDsJ8UU64 (yes, that is her ex husband in the video).
I keep wanting to tell people, being with someone isn't really different than being single... because you still have to deal with your stuff yourself and you don't magically become a perfectly evolved human. You just have someone of the opposite sex who is required to give you more hugs than your girlfriends. Also, I don't want to sleep with any of my girlfriends, but since I am not married yet and not sleeping with Aaron, sometimes it just feels like he just somehow found the magical portal into being close like Linnea or Earl... but than again, I would not make a music video like the above about Linnea or Earl. Honestly though, I don't understand what it is I feel for Aaron. I feel comfortable saying it's ordained, because I believe it is, but for the first time in my life defining a relationship in my head doesn't work. It just is.
I guess since I need to obsess to be myself I will be obsessing now about my lack of obsessing about my relationship. *tips hat*
Work is also undefinable, but in a less pleasant way. Someone should pay me to be my own think tank. That would be great.
Last night Catie, Amelia, Charissa and I sat around and watched Fade to Red, Tori's latest music video collection complete with commentary. That was the most zen like part of the week for me so far. Sort of like the Victorian practice of blood letting, except with emotions.
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| | Posted 10/28/2008 11:02 PM - 37 Views - 6 eProps - 3 comments
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